Katie Postel Photography Blog

This past year has been one of the hardest years of my life. I’ve moved away from what I considered to be my home. A place I’ve lived since I was in my young 20’s (I’m now 37). I had a second baby. My husband built us a yurt on a property of land in the middle of nowhere. Many moments have been memorable.  So many have been heartachingly difficult. All I can say is that change is such a test.

A test of who you are as a human. As a parent. As a partner. Moving away from all that I’ve known the past 15 years is like a shock to the system. I miss my community and my friends. On the hard days I wish for my old life back. On the good days I think to myself ‘I can do this.’ Nothing worthwhile is easy. So, I find myself attempting to focus on the present moments.

Watching my children interact and laugh with each other. Listening to my husband play his guitar on our lanai during the evenings. Looking out at the vast array of stars on a clear night if we haven’t fallen asleep immediately following putting the kids to bed. These are the special memories I hope I can remember.

We are coming upon another change and I’m feeling sad and withdrawn. My husband got a job on the other side of the island, and the commute is too far for us to stay where we are. We plan to rent our property and hope that someone will be willing to watch our dog for us. All the rentals in the area we are looking for don’t allow dogs. My heart has been hurting. Our dog has been with us for so long that I don’t know what life is like without her. I feel like our family is being separated and it’s just painful. I’m hoping this is temporary and we can find somewhere that will be a good fit for her soon.

All of this to say. Life is freaking hard sometimes. Here comes another move with its impending challenges. All I can do is ride this wave with my family. In hopes that someone can help us along in our journey and watch after our dog while we figure out our next move. I’m sad. I’m trying to keep it together for the kids. I’m nervous about what the future holds. I’m also excited about the opportunities that this new area might bring in terms of business. It’s such a wild time in my life. I feel like I’m going to look back and be like ‘how the f did you get through that year?’

So that’s where I stand in this moment. Currently surrounded by the unknown. With hopes for our dog and our future. Knowing that change is constant and inevitable, but that change is currently testing the crap out of me.

With some fear and hope,

Katie